Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Ten years old.

When it's summer, the snow falls.
When it's spring, the leaf withers.
When it's winter, the sun shines.
When it's autumn, the flower blooms.
Everything is not right,
when you are not by my side. 

                  - Genevie, 2002.

Praying that somehow things will change. 

Friday, April 20, 2012

Missed flight for the first time :)

Location : Starbucks LCCT
Time : 3.07 pm

Yup :) I just missed my flight. KL-MYY. 
I don't know if this is entirely my fault, but .. hmm, i'll let you judge this time. 

My flight was supposed to be at 12.50pm. I reached LCCT around 12.00pm, hung out talking to my babe, Angie in the car until around 12.15pm. 
Oh, and I already checked in since last night. 

I went into departure hall around 12.20pm, and I saw my gate P5, and there were many people sitting down, which made me 'assumed' that we haven't board yet. 
So, I waited and waited. And I can't recall if there was any announcement made. 
All I could remember was, they did call out a boy's name, and that boy hurriedly walked out of the hall.

So, I was a fool too. I admit. 
So, I missed the flight. I asked why didn't they call out my name ( BECAUSE I'VE CHECKED IN, in the system, i supposed i am a 'missing' passenger ), they said they no longer practice calling out names. 

Me: How about the boy?
Officer: Oh, maybe because he 'dropped his IC' or something. We just need to identify him.

Very 'reasonable' indeed.

But what pissed me off was that, 
1) We often hear names being called out, especially passengers who have checked in but haven't board. Why no call my name laaaa ? Aiyo ... 
2 ) What's the point of doing head count, if it's not to make sure ALL your passengers are on board ? 

Well, whatever it is, what sadden me the MOST is that, hmm, missed flight = new flight ticket = MONEY ! 

So my dad has to fork out extra RM150 as a penalty , in addition to the already paid RM 400 for my return flight ticket. 

Daddy, I'm sorry. I promise I will be a good girl and will never disappoint you.

Lesson learnt. Moral of the story:
1) NEVER EVER EVER take things for granted. We might think they will, sometimes they WON'T.
2) Don't be a FOOL. Keep waiting won't solve problems. ACTION does !

Ok la.. 
Need to go into the departure hall now. I'm gonna go in ONE HOUR earlier. Stand besides the gate, be the first to board,  if possible. Hahaha ! 

Miri, see u at sunset. KL, don't miss me :) I'll be back :) 

Muka kerisauan earlier. Tau pun risau. Tapi no action taken. A slap to my face. Haahhaah !

Don't worry. Itu tadi. Now sudah happy. As long as I get to see my family soooon. Enjoying my Chocolate Cream Chip :) 

Friday, March 23, 2012

Indian Muslim Wedding

The next day, 17/03/2012, I was honored to be invited to attend my friend's sister's wedding. My friend ni nama dia Nizam. But sorry Nizam, I x ingat nama kakak u -_- Sorry Sorry Sorry for the ignorance :p 

Ok. I have been to Malay Wedding, like .. once :p .. Never been to an Indian Wedding before. So, this was an Indian-Muslim Wedding, that means second Malay wedding and first Indian wedding. So kawan-kawan, sila la kawen cepat - cepat ok. :p 

So, the wedding theme was Indian. So, the bride and bridegroom chose Indian traditional costume. Nurul and I pulak , terhegeh - hegeh nak pakai Saree la jugak kan :p Well, thank you so much Nurul for the idea and also for borrowing Saree from her friend, Ambiga Ganasan, for me :) Baik kan my friend ni. Everything was prepared for me .. hik hik hik .

The day started with both of us pegi ke kedai Saree to tie our Saree. Tak pandai ok lilit-lilitkan kain yang panjang berpuluh-puluh meter tu. And I was surprised because one Saree tying costed RM 25 eachhhhhh ok .. Mahal gileeee .. It's ok .. I dah tau how she tied my Saree,so next time, siapa-siapa want to ikat Saree after this, please come to mama !! hahahaah :p

I love my Saree :) Black always brings out my colour, although it is the one colour that I always try to avoid la jugak. 

I can't remember nama kedai ni, but i'll update once I get the info ok :) Mana tau ada yang nak tie Saree here kan. I have to warn you first, RM25 for each Saree ok :) 

The wedding was held kat Assunta Hall, belakang Assunta Hospital. 

This entry was titled 'Indian Muslim Wedding' tapi I don't have any pictures of the couple -_- More to Nurul and I and a few friends punya gamba la :p It's alright la kan :) 

Cute kan the door gifttttt ?? Cute kan cute kan ? Please say yesssss ! Prepared by Nurul :)

Enjoy the pictures :)
Banyak gambar kitorg yang camwhore-camwhore sahaja ya :) 

haaaa .. Ini Boy or Khairul Baharudin, he is an amazinggggggggg MakeUp Artist ok.. He did my make up masa Press Conference for Miss Universe Malaysia 2012.Flawless ! ..

 Macam barbie doll kan (kahkahkahkah)

You can find him on Facebook, or Twitter @KhaiBaha

Ok back to business :p 

Nurul and I, posing atas tangga pun jadi jugak .. And my Charles & Keith sandal :) RM 25 only ok ! Bought masa Warehouse Sales the other day :) 

With Firdaus :) 

The red looks nice on Nurul kan ..

So, sekian saja Entry ini :) I hope you enjoyed it :)

My intention is just to share my joy my story, it's up to you if you like it or if you don't :) 

Lots of Muahmuah,
Genevie !

Class Outing !!!!

Jumaat lepas, 16/03/2012, sy dan dak2 class sy tgh mengadakan perkelahan (btol ke) di Hutan Lipur Sg. Kanching.

Ok ok, enuff with ayat2 skema.

As this is our final year, final semester for most of them,and of course another semester for myself, so we decided to take a day out of our hectic schedule, and planned for a picnic. 

Nothing much to say, of course it was fun, I did not swim because I just did not feel like it :p I helped with the BBQ tho :p I pandai la jugak ok . Orang Ulu katakannnnnn .. 

One thing about this place, damnnnn ALOT of monkeyysssssss .. 
They are harmless,tapi takut also la .. Sempat jugak 'tertengok' SiMon Key tgh 'project'. Adoii.. get a room la .
Our 'excitement' started with one monkey snatched a plastic of Nasi lemak from Ely, who was holding it. 
So one advice, tak payah nak tayang your BMW ke, Lambo ke, Ferrari ke kalau plan to go there, you don't wanna go back with missing radio antenna ke, car rain guards ke. Ok ? :) 

Enjoy the pik-caaaaaaaaas :) 

Ini lah kitorg. 27 orang. 

Kereta2 yg terlibat :p Tq to Bal, Ed, Mazril, Shikin, Famie and Uwais yang provide transport.

Saya tumpang kereta Ed @ Lin Dan :p Thnxx Ed !!

Nice kan the waterfall ? :) We had to climb up HUNDREDS of stairs ( ini tipu ) .. Tiringgggg ok!! Lama tak workout :p 

7kg of Kerang jadi mangsaaaaaa !!

Ayam BBQ recipe Famie and Uwais. Not bad kan our boys :) 

Bila dak2 laki pegi semayang Jumaat, kitorg pun dgn pantassss nyaa membakar Kerang dan menikmatinya dengan pose masing2 ..

Nice pose boys :)

And the girls :) 

 Me pulak, berangan jadi mermaid yang ber sun tan di tepi pantai yang indah.. 

With Shikinnnnnn :)

The girls. Except for Shikin, Shakila and Shasha yang had to balik awal.

Let's cherish this precious moment friends :) Approx. 4 months before you guys graduate :) I hope we all had a good time studying together, and of course, we will definitely have more and more good times together in the future :) 

Bachelor of Engineering (Hons.) Chemical and Process Group EH 221 A,

All the best to our future undertakingssss, may we land the best career, may we marry the person we love and , and may we have lots and lots and lots of kids :) 

Till then, Love you all :) 

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Kisah Hati-Alyah

In love with this song. Heard it for the first time masa Juara Lagu. Now this song is in my lullaby playlist, listening to it every single night.
And this girl is very pretty too.. Kan ?

This song, its every single word, is singing what my heart wants to tell #awak.  

Hatiku hatimu
Menjadi satu cinta
Ku rasa hadirmu menyempurnakan aku
Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita
Semua harus berakhir
Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini
Mungkin kita bersama
Nanti di atas sana
Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

Cinta kau dan aku
Takkan mungkin bersatu
Untuk saat ini di dunia ini

Biar ku setia menjaga cintamu

* sudah-sudah la emo tu Genevie. Urgh .. 

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Have you ever....

Have you ever wanted something so much, but you just can't have it ?
Have you ever, as a child, wanted to play in the playground so much, but your parents just won't let you?
Have you ever wanted to eat ice cream so much when you are sick, but you just can't? 
Have you ever tried on a pair of shoes that fits you perfectly, but you just can't buy it?
Frustrated much? 

Have you ever loved someone so much, but you just can't be together?
Have you ever wondered, why do we have to fall for someone that just ' doesn't meant to be ' ? 

Have you ever wished that, forever is the word to describe your love ?
Have you ever wished that, his face will be the first thing you'll see in the morning?
Have you ever wished that, he is the person you'll kiss goodnight every night?
Have you ever wished that, his hands will be the hands that you will hold forever?
Have you ever wished that, you don't have to cry yourself to sleep?
Have you ever wished that, you don't miss that someone so much in the middle of the night, so that you can just fall asleep? 
Have you ever wished that, you don't fall for that someone, in the first place, if only you knew how much it hurts?

How I wish.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

When being strong is the only way.

Well, it has been a while. I was busy with new room. New semester. Adjusting my brain to new environments. Giving my neurons time to at least remember how to link with other neurons -_- Well,  after almost 6 months of fun events, finally, it's time to slow down. And to start focusing on goals in life. 

Yes, I have goals.
One of it is to graduate as an Engineering Student. Chemical Process Engineering to be exact.
If I chose not to join Miss Universe Malaysia last year, this would be my final semester. And I would have starting job maybe in September ? October ? If there's any company interested in hiring me with such *** results -_-

But no, I'm not regretting anything. The paths that I chose, I have given them thorough thoughts and most importantly, discussed with my parents. No regrets. Everything happens for REASONS. Or A reason, at least. 

Back to my goal, yes. I am going to be one HOT ENGINEER. I don't care. Who says Engineer has to be boring people. ( i don't know bout this, but if you are in UiTM, you will see and you will also resentfully accept the fact that Engineering people ( or students ) are boring, according to, ARE YOU READY?  the way we dress -_- )

Hmm, well, how do I put this. Hmm .. I was a Shell Scholar. WAS. I was damn good during my diploma years that when I applied for scholarship before i got into degree, I got it ! So yeah, my first 3 years were fully funded by scholarship. And also parents, of course.

Anddddddd, after 3 years, it came to theirrrr attention thattttt, my first year result was not goooood. -_- Not up to their minimal standard. So, Hmmmm, yeah.. My scholarship was terminated -_- .. 

So i did send in appeal letter, saying all BS like it's my final year and how the hell i'm gonna apply for study loans. No, not really BS. that's the truth. How am I supposed to survive my final year without $$$ ?? My room ?? Daily expenses ? 

And yes, I have the world's bestttttttt Family. Mum and Dad who constantly give. Sister who constantly gives along with a piece of 'advice', never fails.

So, yeah. 13/03/2012. I finally got the reply from Shell that they will continue with the decision to terminate. The moment I read that, I thought of my parents. 25 and still depending on them financially. Am I joking ? Is this a joke ? OMG. I can't even laugh ! It's too damn funny ! -_-

Whatever it is, I'm feeling sick in my stomach now. Headache. Confused. Don't know if it's because of crying or because of Mee Goreng Kambing -_- Trying to stay strong. Trying to hold on to the reasons that have make me strong all this while. Never gonna give up, although I feel like sh*t now. Having my family in my mind now, is the only reason that makes me strong. I know they are, and they will always be there for me. No matter what. 
No matter what.

Mummy was once a girl who has high hopes and dreams and goals. But nothing in life is free my baby. We have to pay the price for whatever that comes our way. No matter what it is. Life is about balance. When you have one thing, you might not have the other. So, fret not my baby, life is a journey. Mummy will be there for you, just like like how your grandpa and grandma and your wonderful auntie have been there for mummy. 

Baby, remind mummy to tell you about a very special someone in mummy's life ok? A friend of mine, who was once in mummy's life :) We couldn't make it through this time, maybe next life :) 
Baby, mummy loves you. Even before you are born. Always and will always do. 

Love you. Sayang #awak. 

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

28/02/2012 7.20pm

This summarizes my feeling now. 

At the end of the day, this is what I want ...

Hug me, would you ? 
Stop hurting me, would you ?
Please be more sensitive, would you ?

*And No, i'm not crying. At all. 

The one you say goodnight to by Kina Grannis

I am IN LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE with this song !

Lyrics | Kina Grannis lyrics - The One You Say Goodnight To lyrics

Red Valentine's. 2012

Sorry, walaupun lambat sudah, but I still wanna post this one up :) So, 2012, I celebrated my Valentine's with dearest cousins and also a few girls. We sort of called it Single-Valentine's-Day la :p For those yang no partner, or partner is too far away, or any other reasons lahh .. 

The dinner was held at Celebrities, Imperial Hotel, Miri and was attended by 9 beautiful young girls :p Chewahhhh :p 

*Dress by my sis, So-not-matching-pumps by Vincci/me. Simple sahaja. But masa tu I felt that my dress was more like Christmas-ish :p 

And so the dinner started. Reached there around 7.30-ish. Seperti biasala, the ladies jadi tempat lepak while waiting for the other girls. Mula la camwhoring with my cousins :) 
* Photos courtesy of Geena, Felicia, Jessica and Freda

Sangat susah when camwhoring is our expertise :p 

Some of the dishes, my hp died, so couldn't take my own pic. The food, superb la. Tapi normal lah, quantity memang sikit. I love the dessert ! Sedap woo ..

And also, we brought our own gifts, and had gift exchange. I bought Chocolate je. It's ok :) Yang penting, the thought and the wish kan kan kan :) 
Chocolate yang tak mahal. Murah sahaja -_- .. 

Among the gifts that we brought, chocolates or flowers or both :) 

Cabut undi style, When it was my turn to cabut, cabut punya cabut, I dapat la my cousin's chocolate :) 
*sounds so wrong, cabut punya cabut. Whatever it is la, sorry BM fail. 
She is gorgeous kan :) Sorry guys, she is taken !! 

And my gift was meant for this pretty young lady, Lily :) 
I don't understand my standing posture -_- 

And sebelum balik, we had a 'photoshoot' :)  I likeee .. 

* Sorry, photos are a bit blur :) 

Here are a few of after-dinner photos, for your viewing pleasure. Wah wah :p 

My cousin, Felicia :)

 The youngest of that night, my lil cousin, Geena :) 

With the main person behind this dinner (far right), Jessica, Thank you for the night :) 

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

 Thanks so much to Felicia, who invited me to this dinner. I mean, who said Valentine's day is to be celebrated with special boyfriend or girlfriend only right ? It's a day to share the love that we have with the person that we love and care. Family, friends. 

That night, I felt the love and I know I belong somewhere in someone's heart :) He might not know it, and I respect his decision, whatever it is, when it comes to love, I have my love for him,only for him :) Only him, atleast for now.  

Dear awak,
Because you are the gift of my life, I give you the gift of my love.